26 August, 2016

Wander in the night


Scribble scribble...
The ping of messenger penetrates the tympanum and vibrates my nerves.
I can't sleep without lights when I'm alone. I just can't help starting to imagine supernatural objects I've seen on TV.
How can people not think of it when they sleep?
I can hear some sounds from the neighbor living in the first floor that relieve me a bit. I can tell myself that I'm not the only one who's awake. Let's sleep while they're still up.
Look at the lamp on the nightstand.
"How many times do I sleep on this bed?"
Then look at Jan's pillow awaiting its owner's return.

24 August, 2016

Wakey wakey


We've got roller shutter on all windows in our apartment. That's what wakes us up in the morning as it opens up with the time you set the night before. 
Right up until it goes up you're in a deep sleep in the dark and suddenly you feel as if the shower of light hits you wearing a night vision device, just like a movie, or you get caught by the spot light of the helicopter in the dark, like a movie. Ok, this is too much but you can even feel the contraction of pupils in the white light. It works better than when the alarm wakes me. This is how I woke this morning.
The digital watch is displaying 8:00. Oops, I slept too long. 

22 August, 2016

Reunion after the trip


The late afternoon we walked to his parents. 3 minutes away.
Every time they come back from their trip they give us a ring and tell that they're back. This means they've got presents for us from the trip and we should come by and have a coffee and biscuits with them. Then "Present time". 
All the stuff nicely laid on a rack placed on the left side of the living room entrance and they show them to us proudly as if some of their belongings is about to be inherited. And his mom explains where, when, why, and how they got it to us, on each present and it's finally handed to us. This is a ritual.
We've got a bottle of Canadian Maple Syrup, Maple tea, and a T-shirt with some prints of Maple leaves. 

21 August, 2016

Sunday chill


Woke up with uncomfortable dreams. Once I realized that I'm awake and it was a dream I tried to figure out how I slept in the bed. 
They say that you have nightmares when your heart is under pressure, for example, your hand was on your chest, you were sleeping on left shoulder and your chest was closing..and so on. I don't know if this is proved but as for me this theory is correct.
I didn't want to go back to bed where I had the nightmare so I decided to get up and have breakfast.

I made those (burnt) pancakes a few mornings ago and kept them in the freezer.
It has about 10g protein each. I usually have them when I go to the gym in a couple of hours.
Made a cup of coffee, had a glass of juice, I'm good to go. 

Later, I have to come by Jan's parents. They're back from their 2 week-vacation in Canada. 
Every time I come back home from them my cheek gets sore from smiling the whole time. 

Get to their door, pinch my cheek, and press the bell. Smile.
You gotta look pretty and be kind, honey. I always tell myself. 

M

A Chocolate Chiffon Cake


After I cooked dinner I baked a chocolate cake, thinking that he'd like it. 
A chiffon cake. 
It just disappears in your mouth once you have it. 
When I bake a cake for birthdays or anniversary, nothing but chiffon comes to celebrate it. It's just better than other cakes in any way. Softer, moister, richer, more flavorful, feels fragile and elegant at once.


M

18 August, 2016

Greek dinner on one Saturday night


On 13th, Saturday evening we got together with Anni, Jan's younger sister who just came back from NYC and Boston trip. 
She lives in a town ca. 40 min-drive away from us but she stayed her parents house to rest the night and we decided to eat outside that day. 
We get a few chance to meet.

03 August, 2016

30th June Exam


The reason I moved back to Germany in the late Spring is for this exam even though the school starts in Fall.
The subjects I had to take were English, Math, and German.
I couldn't just help wondering why they test even mathematics even though it's a language school... But I had to study for it anyway.
Earlier this year I had bought 2 of mathematics exercise books for the first high school year. I'd completely forgotten the existence of "absolute value"... Do you?
I started to study as if I saw the numbers and characters for the first time.
Some smoke almost started to come out of my head everyday. "I can't remember how I did this..." No matter how many times I read the explanation of its solution I just can't get it.
People say "you just remember how to solve it as it is" but I, just, can't, get it.
But I can learn like that when I studied English. "Because you learn the language. It's the way it is". This works for some and doesn't for others. Math is however available worldwide no matter which language you learn with and it should be understandable for everyone lol
My brain isn't for math for sure. It had just been like a torture until 30th June was over.

We had 2 hours for each subject and the first one was English at 8:10-10:10.
Some grammatical questions, complete blanks (at, in, to, on, from), true or false, essay and stuff.
It was easy. You wouldn't even need to study for it.
Then Math at 10:30-12:30.
I died. I am SO worried if I've passed it. I will know the results on 8th, Friday.
If, IF I failed, I would have to take a speaking test in German.
The last one, German was at 13:30-15:30.
2 hours just for an essay.
I died again. Thank you for making me write an essay who speaks baby German.

There were only 5, including me, who took the test and the 4 of them were German. LOL
They want to study at University like me too.
At this school, though I called it a language school, you can get a permission to go on study for University.
For foreigners, it's like that you have to get certain score to continue study such as TOEFL.
They must've either not passed the exam to continue study for University when they fished high schools or not taken it and started to work and now want to study again.

Anyway, thank God the exam is over. There's nothing more I can do for it.
I'm keeping my fingers crossed and hoping I will get a good news.
I'm on the plane to Tokyo now to spend one month with my family and friends.

I will blog about it soon 😊

24th June Lake


It had been very hot days and this day the temperature went up to 38 degrees.
Earlier this day Jan and I were walking towards the gym and I joked that we could go swimming.
It was till June and I was of course not ready for swimming but Jan took it seriously and asked me "why not?"
And this didn't sound bad to me so we ended up driving to the lake in the forest.

It had been a while since I bathed in the water outside as I can't even remember last time I went to a beach in Summer.
After we put sunscreens all over our bodies I was looking at the lake and and couldn't bring myself to go ahead and start to swim yet while Jan was just waiting for me to decide to go..
We got a place on the grass in the sun on an upper hill and went down to the water surface. I dipped my toes in the water.
The water was a lot colder than I expected....but I expected it'd feel cold.
He kept walking into the water and I was desperate saying "don't leave me alone! Lol"
I guess we (Jan was waiting for me) stayed there the very shallow spot for about 5 minutes until I finally made it to swim.
Sooooo refreshing!!
I was holding Lufthansa buoy while making Jan swim the entire time. Haha
The water was sparkling, the sun was giving it Summer warmth, airplanes were flying just above our heads and people were having fun in the water.
In a while we swam back to the hill and laid in the sun. We didn't bring anything to eat and this gave me a reason to ask him for snack ;)
I've got Currywurst (sausages and sauce seasoned with curry powder) and french flies.
Just wonder why ordinary food taste so good outside?

After we had the snack we went back to swim once more. We couldn't stay longer as Jan had standby from mid afternoon for a flight but it was about 2 hour of nice stay.